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I'm sure that was a difficult thing to write and share, but that's why it needed to be. I could relate so strongly to the window. I once took a knife to the screen (basement apartment) so I could climb out. Same age, too.

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Thank you. I’m sorry you had to escape like that. My youngest just turned 12 and sometimes I look at her and think I’m so glad she and my other kids has lived a different life

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Same!!! My oldest is 12 too. I sometimes wonder if I'm a "good mom" and then I remember all the crap I had already gone through by his age, and the fact I've been able to give them stability and all that good stuff makes me feel a but better.

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Apr 21, 2023Liked by Jason McBride

These are gorgeous!

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Thanks!

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Wonderful experiments, Jason. It takes courage and willingness to confront the past. Thank you for sharing your story. I find making art to be an alchemy for whatever life throws at us. Keep going! And, thank you for the shoutout- much appreciated.

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Thank you! I agree with you. Art is such a healing force

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I love that the first line in your haiku is a single word. Not sure I've seen that before.

I was just talking with my writer's group last night about the "write like your parents are dead" adage, which is supposed to help people with living folks (friends, partners, enemies) get past their hangups about writing their experiences truthfully. But you've shown us that it doesn't necessarily get easier to open up when those people are gone. I also think finding a "through" process can look different for different people. For some, it's a tell-all memoir. For others, it's visual art and poetry. For others, music. Etc. If there's healing in it at all, it's worth doing. Even if you're not ready to burn all the bridges at once.

Keep it up. Really enjoying your offerings so far, Jason.

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Wow! Thank you Jason for so kindly mentioning my newsletter! I love your collage haiku!! I love it that you used it as a prompt for a personal essay!! You are brave and courageous!! I hear you about feeling guilty for talking about the past - many years ago in therapy I struggled with talking about my biological entities so strongly had they drilled into my skull that secrets must be kept. Both of the biological entities are dead now thankfully but I still don't talk much about them. My adopted parents were much nicer and I call them Mom and Dad and talk about them proudly and often! Art making is such an ongoing gift of healing. You are appreciated!! ❤

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